It has been a while since I’ve had time to breathe lately, and I apologize for my absence from the blogosphere. It’s hit that time in the semester when my days are spent at the campus coffee house, my nose buried in books, from sun up to sun down. For some reason this semester I am feeling like I have no motivation. I was talking to a few of my friends over the past few weeks about the fact that we all feel as though we’re stuck in MA-Limbo: done with undergrad, but not yet settled in a PhD program. I recently started working on my list of schools to apply to this summer, and it’s been a weird experience. I feel like I just got here and already, I’m planning out my next step and deciding where to move next. It’s hard to feel settled at all. If I thought last summer was bad, it’s nothing compared to now.
Now, I’m in limbo, but I have legitimate and intense work to complete. Now, I must work to get out limbo, not just wait. It’s not that I resent the work; I love it – really. It’s just hard to maintain my focus when all I want to do is start the next chapter of my life, the one where I will be settled for a few years once again. I miss feeling settled.